charlie's Journal

9:16pm: well i think my life has reached a point where it can not get better, my life is litterally perfect apart from 2 tiny things. money,but im surviving for no, and im working on should have £800 more by the start of next term possibly a lot more due to medical research, the other tiny thing is one of my modules that iv not been to once this semester but im changing so thats sorted and just means some catching up to do. but other than that nothing can bring me down cos im so lucky, nothing is wrong at all. there is not many people that can claim that and not for long periods of time.
i just hope it doesnt all turn to crap which is very possible.

i would just thought i would update with this information cos i havnt in a while and cos i want to remember what it feels like when lifes not perfect.

7:43pm: found the perfect house and are sighning for it on monday. 8 bedrooms. but we did want 9 but jonny didnt mind but its going to be bad loseing him cos hes well quality. yay us

3:29am: the internet is not such a good thing. im drunk and told someone something i shouldnt have. shitski

7:22pm: iv got tinternet in my room and im happy. and im not in my overdraft but thats cos iv my loan and still dont have enough money to pay for my accomadation not so good as i have to put a deposit down on a house soon as well and my parents are away so they cant wire me any money, gayness. other than that and failing an exam today and not going out at all im well happy. everything is cool apart from im not in chamonix when kieth is more gayness. pointless post cos iv got the net i know.

1:03am: ow my head my fucking head. 8 hours sleep in the past 3 days and yesterday a lot of alcohol im still drunk now and its mixing with the hangover. note to self never let anyone get you a drink cos you know its gonna fuck you over.

4:56pm: its been a while since iv posted on here, the 6th of october to be exact. the truth is iv lost interest in the internet. not having it for so long has been great but now im home for christmas and there is nothing else to do. i have a feeling im gonna miss uni quite a lot cos i forgot how shit this place is. although im only saying that cos i got my hair cut today and its propper shit and has put me in a real bad mood. anyway im not sure if anyone still reads this cos i dont read anyone elses but if anyones out tonight i might see you out.

6:16am: im feeling better today yesterday was a real bad day i was in my room the whole time with the curtains shut. this is because i got soo drunk the night before my flat mate was in about the same state and did the same thing but he kept being sick which i wasnt which im proud of. however these last 2 days i have felt so light headed and i cant concentrate, i had to do some reading before a lecture and i just couldnt the same whith my writing.
i dont know probably just my stupidity or lack of food all i have had to eat in 2 days is a lil box of chocolate shreddies without milk cos i cant be bothered to got to the shop and get some. well im actually avoiding shops cos iv quit smokeing so if i go in one i will probably buy some fags so no cups of tea with milk in for me.

i have a feeling this entry makes little or no sence so please disgaurd it.

12:03am: right so iv had my first allergic reation to something i dont know what or what caused it. this cold/flu has thrown me completely off cos i havnt had any propper illness for about 3 years but when i do its really bad, i just hope i get over it soon. anyone who reads this from uni or if not so just anyone email me and i will try to reply cos i want to see what everyone is doing etc........

9:49am: its been so long without a computer but now im on one so im finnaly happy. just started reading some journals. but the last 2 weeks have been fucking wicked been out everynight although last night was a quiert one. ohh and im really really ill i got like 3 hours sleep cos the rest of the night i was coughing up my lungs. im glad to see everyone s enjoying uni. and out of all my lectures i have missed 4 that i needed to be there for and turned up to 3 that wernt anything to do with me. got to go cos i have a lecture, and this one is one of mine.

9:01pm: for some gay reason my computer will not format, however by natural skill i managed to streamline it which involved removing all the programs i dont use and going through windows deleting random files. my computer has more memory than ever and is suprisingly running faster and well more efficently. then whe i get to uni i will get someone who is actually good at computers to fix everything that i have messed up.

6:58pm: on my way home from barholm tonight i suffered from a lil road rage . i was in one of my moods of lets see how fast i can move this car (my dads ford focus).
coming out of deeping onto the A16 i pulled out in front of another car, not that close but still close enough to piss off the boy racer in the shitty golf cos he must have slowed down from about 70 to 60. so after leaving him in my dust a couple of miles down the road i get held up by 2 cars which i wasnt to bothered about cos i was chilling out a bit by then. then the boy racer catches up with me and being the twat that he is goes right up my ass. when the car in front of me indicates i see my chance to get this dickhead off me so i left it till the last minute to brake, and brake i did, sharply as it happens, shitting up the dude behind me. so he backs off a bit.
so there is now 3 of us driving along at 50 then when he saw the opportunity to overtake he did but couldnt do both of us so being the nice considerate driver i am i let him in front of me. but ha it was part of my plan cos now i could get right up his ass, see how you like it were the imaginary words in my head. when another gap opened up he promptly overtook the guy in front followed by myself. as he overtook he tried his hardest to speed off but as he has a shit car so couldnt. this is when things speed up. when he went back onto the right side of the road i continued and overtook the bastard, which was risky as there was a corner coming up but being tall i could see if there were any lights from cars coming which i didnt think there was and the risk paid off.
so i sped off once again into the distance and kept speeding the whole way home.
i know its stupid illegal and i could die but its kind of fun and im sure he wont do it again.

8:07am: what a feeling...

5:32pm: i want to wish everyone good luck and i wont be bitter if i have fucked up and everyone has done well. i will just not talk to anyone who does well ever again and maybe kill their pets.

5:49pm: i hate fruit machines cos they are robbing bastards but late night classical fm is well good.
ohh and iv just finished my second job and have stolen a bit of time on the net.
2 jobs thats right im well motivated. i hate both of them but yeah im a real worker person.

11:47am: i have been doiung a lil math and have realised i have either been getting drunk or been in a pub spending money and being merry 19 days in a row. to be fair one of those i was working cos i started my new job as bar man. so now i feel tired and run down but have had a lot of fun. ohh and there was weed involved.
so my holiday was good my birthday was good everything has been good.
tonight im going to take it easy by only going to a quiert pub and maybe a smoke afterwards.
this is a random non grammerfied non spelt correctly brief post.

i was ment to be working all summer and not doing all this crazy summer stuff. i just hope its not ruined by shit exam results.

5:00pm: its been a great birthday last night got fucked and had a good night out although i did have a fight with a road and lost. i was still drunk this morning and got home had a familly bbq and got drunk again so right now im wasted. whoo happy birthday me.

11:01am: it takes a certain kind of person to be rejected from the one place that hires any retard no matter if they have never passed an exam in there lives or are seriously mentally handicaped. but today geest rejected me, how good do i feel.

11:53pm: its gonna be a good birthday week
its my birthday on sat. so my brother my mum and i went shopping in pboro. even though it was designed to be about my pressents my brother made it about him so i was kind of just left at the back. to me that explained a lot.
anyway on a lighter note i got a new phone which is well nice and on a contract that i dont have to pay for so im happy.

then this week im going ice skating tomorrow, should be fun then the gym with kieth on wednessday, make me look even more sexy than i already do which is a shocking concept i know. then thursday and friday i will be going to the pub always good. the sat will be my actually my birthday so i shall be starting off early and finishing off being very wasted so if anyone is out in deeping give me a ring cos i will be around. and then sunday i will be rough at my family bbq and then monday i will be at work for a week before i go on holiday. so im feeling this is gonna be a good week.

4:21pm: im thinking about defering. and i cant start geest till im 18 so that gives be about 10 days off and only a week working till i go on holiday.

11:01pm: whats up doc?
i may not be so good at revesing or checking my mirrors or actually driving well but at least i am good at emergency stops. tim and i were driving out of barholm about 50mph and a rabbit ran out infront of us. a couple of seconds later a lot of smoke and a cool calm tim (who actually pooed himself a little) we stoped about 2 feet infront of where the rabit was.

4:27pm: tis the holiday season
now that i am back im really quite blue.
my holiday was good and i drank a lot of beer in the sun saw a lot of fitties and learnt how to surf. now i have to find a job and it feels like everyone is having a great summer without me. ohh and i swam with a dolphin in the sea and not a tank so it chose to swim with us so it was more special. i cant wait till my next holiday and till i start enjoying this summer.



edit: im really really gonna start looking for a girlfriend cos im a lil bit lonely and bored of being single

4:27pm: ohh and i forgot im going on holiday on saterday. iv not thought about it at all

4:24pm: finally finished. so satisfied

10:32am: FUCKING robbed

3:43am: iv never done so badly on such an easy exam in my whole life and now i dont feel good about it. so tonight im going to get wasted on blackcurrant and lose myself ina whirl of fags and fruitys.